Wow, what a journey!
Here I am sooooo full of Gratitude for all that is Given, for Erik and all that we went through together, for the Beauty and Profoundity of the undoing of the idea in a separate self!
Here is probably the last post that will happen on this blog, as Erik and I just entered to the court in CA, the papers signed for a summary dissolution, which is another way of getting a divorce, to which I was guided! Wow, how surprising you might think. What happened?
Actually how joyful is the experience I am in... Nothing happened! The marriage has served the Purpose it was intended for... awakening to our True Nature. We never knew what was in the Plan, but our vow was a marriage to God, to follow the Guidance of the Spirit and to have Awakening as primary Purpose! We knew and were real about it, that it could end any time! No different than any other marriage, except that we were very aware of it, and also that if it was the case, it wouldn't be coming from a conflict but from Guidance and Love!
Several months ago, I received the Guidance that it was time, that we were to each go our way. I could feel it coming... The biggest part of me was all for it, but I could see a subtle desire to stay in the comfort and the ease of our relationship. One day, as I was talking to a friend about it, I had this vision of Erik and I taking the step and being in such a state of Joy, that I ran in the room where he was and told him "It is time, we have to take that step! I know that at a logical level, it makes no sense, but I've seen and felt the Joy and I need to trust that. I'm a bit scared, but I feel that is the direction" and so it was. Erik wasn't full of joy at that time, but could feel something in what I was sharing. We decided together that when the time to fill any paper would come, we would both feel it and wouldn't do anything before that!
Although this was really clear in our minds, nothing really changed. As there is such a certainty in our minds, that the Love we feel for each other has nothing to do with each other and will never stop because the bodies are not together or because our seeming marital status changes. We know in such a deep way that this Love is beyond everything and is unbreakable! And that's what was revealed through our marriage... to constantly go beyond the form, to recognize the Love that never changes, that is untouched by anything.
Since that day, all the steps, as for the marriage, were Given us in perfect timing! I would even say in wondrous, miraculous ways... and there is absolutely no sense of sacrifice, or loss in any way!
If anything it is even more Love and more Joy that is present.
And for me, all the letting that occurred in these last couple of months with absolutely everything leaves nothing but Gratitude and a deeper Recognition of the I that I Am! It's shining brightly and with that comes a Certainty that what I Am is not of this world, and really that the world holds nothing that I want!
Thank You God for creating us Perfect, at your Likeness and Unchangeable!
Forever Grateful and In Love
Armelle
