Journaling with Jesus May 2nd

May 2^nd

Hey Jesus, I feel I’m going deeper and deeper into seeing the falsity of that world, and those identities. I feel more and more disorientated, and so much more easily brought back to the Truth when I still let the ego dictates its judgements. It feels as if you don’t stop talking to me, as if there is the constant voice of Truth bringing me back to where I belong! You were right, I really don’t need to do anything! It’s so great. In the same time, I feel that I never know what to ask you, like if there is no question in my mind. But I feel very strongly joining with You, it’s so helpful! I think also there could be an avoidance of it because it’s so helpful, that it feels to accelerate everything. So it’s kind where I am at today, having had deep meditation after deep meditation since I woke up this morning. It was like I was totally taken over by the Silence and couldn’t move anymore, nor even open my eyes. An experience of no control, and I am not the one in charge, it’s done through me.

(laughter)(big smile)(tinglings in the heart)(spreading all over and leading me in a deep Silence, no control, no movement)(when I opened my eyes, there is so much Joy, I could explode!). I am with you all the time, I’ve never ceased to be. You don’t have to connect with me by writing to connect with me, we have been connected since you woke up and even more;-) Don’t doubt what you do, or don’t do! Just know that it is always perfect as it is, trust what you feel and even more trust your Purpose. That’s what is leading you. Your very asking for me to be in charge of everything when you wake up, put me really in charge of everything. It’s a clear invitation of your Desire for Truth! “Ask and you shall receive”

I am closer to you than what you can even imagine. For the purpose of this relationship is that you know that I am You, that there is no difference between us, no gap, nothing that separates us in any way. I am That which You are. Don’t bother with the rest, it’s all false anyway. See it just for what it is, an illusion.

Yesterday, Erik asked me to put these writings on our blog. I wasn’t feeling it fully, but I did it. After a few minutes I started to feel really bad about it, so I deleted what I published. Again today, he told me he was really feeling it was to be on our blog, for that was truly helpful. So I’d like to explore that, for I might be afraid of being seen as still having those kind of questions, and therefore not that advanced. And I am also afraid, that some of those who might read it could perceive that it’s all bullshit and that I am metaphysical ghosting. So I’d like to know what you would like me to do about that and if you can help me to see what’s blocking clearly. Thank you!!!! Oh my God, it’s crazy how I feel full of Joy after that little experience I just had before;-) You know it’s funny but I feel that a layer has gone, I feel so intimate with You. I don’t feel looking up at You anymore, I feel you are like my best Friend, my most intimate Friend. It really feels that we are so close. I think I even want to say we are the same, that’s the feeling… I don’t feel any difference or separation anymore! Ouhhh

Oh Armelle, it’s so wonderful, I so rejoice with you. That’s exactly what I was talking about! The Purpose of joining together is to know our sameness, and it’s the same Purpose with everything and everyone. It really comes down to Simplicity! For there is only One Purpose for joining, knowing our Sameness, seeing the Christ, only One Answer to everything, without any exception, LOVE, One Purpose for the day, Peace of Mind… there is only One! How can it be more simple than this?

Do you still want me to clarify anything else? (laughter)

Yes, I do. I’ve been so afraid of asking you any question, and now I feel I could just talk to you the whole day. I could just do that all the time, asking you all the question, as futile there are, that come in my mind, so that they can be seen through and disappear!

Ok, that’s great! Let’s go then!

Yes, that would be wonderful for you to share those conversations. There is nothing personal in it. This relationship is not personal, neither the questions you ask. So it would definitely be helpful. Also for you to remember that there is no one outside you that could judge anything! All judgement comes from self-judgement. And who is the self who judges? And who does he judge? What is the bigger perspective on that? It’s false! A trap in which you are willing to fall so easily. To preserve what? A false sense of self! An identity that doesn’t exist and has never been? What for? Being who you think you are? You’ve never been that! It’s impossible. You cannot be what you are not, for it has never been God’s Will and therefore not yours, so it never happened! The only right use of judgement is “how do I feel”, so ask yourself the question regarding those writings.

I feel good, I feel very good, very very good even. I feel more and more aware of everything that is going on in my mind, so much more committed to the Truth, so full of Love and Joy is flowing everywhere… so I guess I have the answer! Thanks (feeling so in love, so full of gratitude)

You are so welcome;-)

There is something else I’d like to ask you. It’s regarding my relationship with Erik. I’d like to know how it could be of better use. How can we use it for the best, for both of us, and everyone? And I’m really talking about everything!

First know that there is no barrier. You don’t belong to each other. You are everyone and everyone is in you. So there is nothing personal either to this relationship, exactly as I just told you for this one. It’s for everyone. Remember that, “When you are healed, you are not healed alone”. So that’s the Purpose of the relationship, Healing! And in this seeming “process” you’re taking everyone with you. When you awake, not one will remain apart. When I awoke, you were with me. Explore everything that you feel to, and take nothing for granted. You never know what’s going to happen. There is only One Moment, and this moment is Now. And that’s truly the Only Thing you can know for certain. The Only thing that can be known is Reality! There is no certainty anywhere else. It’s always changing.

You are together to remind each other the Truth of Who You are, that you may never forget again. It’s the same relationship than with Me. There are no differences, nothing that keep you separate, and he is in your mind as I am. There is no one out there. There is no love story in the sense that the world thinks of it. He is the closest witness to your Desire and also the one with whom to practice What is True. When you can forgive him fully you will remember Your Identity in Christ surely. By offering him to know him, that’s what you’ll give to yourself. It’s not different than any other relationship, but you both have the same shared Purpose. So there is no special bound, but you are there for each other as a cocoon in which you feel safe to open up to the Love that You are, seeing more and more through the illusion of the ego. So he is like your “prior” holy relationship, to go deeper and deeper into what has been hidden and repressed so that it can be seen and released. Therefore don’t keep anything that you might feel could be between you. Open up fully to him, as a symbol of opening up fully to God, but with the awareness of the Purpose! Not falling asleep again. Keep your Purpose in mind as the light that will show you the way. Go in every corner of your mind to uncover everything. Don’t keep anything. For it’s not who you are, but by keeping it, you fear it in some way and therefore make it real. There is nothing to fear, for there is nothing. This world is nothing. And remember, as you see him you will see yourself. As you think of him, you will think of yourself.

Ok thanks. But is there something more specific for us being together? Something in the plan for us to accomplish?

No. Being Who You are, and sharing and extending it. The ways and means will be given. Just stay in Purpose.

What about sexuality? are we suppose to make love, or to use sexuality in a certain way?

As for everything, to see the false as false, to see everything that has been repressed and hidden, and in this matter there are a lot of things that you would like to keep hidden.

You mean, myself, personally?

No, I mean, everyone. It’s something in which there is a lot of shame and guilt because it is related to the body, and therefore there is a huge belief that what we are is the body. Starting there, there is already guilt. Then there is an identification with all the thoughts and fantasies, and as there are a lot of rules too, there is very often and easily a guilt coming with those thoughts which reinforce the belief of being the body, and keep it enchained and not “seeable” because of the fear of what we might find underneath all that. So as long as it is helpful in that way, just use it as you use everything, to join in Truth and let all what needs to come up, come up. If you use it for pleasure, you reinforce the belief that you are the body, and that you can have pleasure in the body, that it is valuable and that you choose that before God. There is nothing wrong with it. But it’s just foolish. It’s just another distraction, like eating can be too. So it just depends the Purpose you use it for. Joining and remembering the Truth, Holy Spirit. Or pleasure and lack, reinforcing you are a body, separate from each other and God, ego. Don’t make it another god! For bodies cannot join. It’s only if you choose to join in the mind that you can undo the fear of intimacy with your Self. For as long as you will see bodies, there will be a fear of joining and intimacy, because you see separation. Therefore you’re afraid of being attacked, and you think you need to protect yourself from the other. But given the proper vision, it can be very useful, until it’s not anymore and there will be no attraction to it either.

Thank You…I love You!

Journaling with Jesus May 1st

May 1^st

Dear Jesus, today I talked with my biological family and it didn’t feel that easy to see them in Truth, I could see that I still believe I am the daughter, mainly with my father that I see I believe is unhappy and I want to save him in some way by giving what I know is true, but it feels like preaching and he is not interested by that, and also with Jade there was some guilt of not being more present for her, that she could miss me or feeling not worthy because I am not there. So can you help me to look at that with your Light.

The belief that we come from the world, from parents is very strong. It’s the core of the ego thought system, that we’ve made ourselves, that we are the author of ourselves, that’s the authority problem, that the core of the guilt, of the belief in separation. That’s the split, the gap in cause and effect, you believe you made the world and then there’s a reversal of it and you believe the world made you, therefore you can be a victim of it, you cannot be responsible for what “happens to you”. And the forgetting keeps reigning in your kingdom, where you are the god. You’ve taken god’s place, you are all mighty and you have all power on everything around you. But that has a counterpart, which is that you need to protect all that, because you believe you’ve taken it, you are usurping this power and you believe therefore that it can be taken away from you. So you never feel safe, and you keep attacking to protect yourself and what you have, because you don’t know who you are. Believing to be your author, you forgot your True Author, and therefore you denied yourself your Reality, for denying God is denying yourself. Therefore, you made parents on which you project they made you. You are not responsible anymore. You didn’t ask, they did that to you. Therefore you owe them your life, and they are responsible for everything that happen to you, for your unhappiness, your failure, etc… so you are not, it’s because of them, because of what they didn’t give you, it’s because they failed that you fail. But all that is so untrue. You are the one choosing to forget and believe you are separate from God, and they are just part of your dream, showing you what you believe, showing you the way to remember the Truth and you give them the purpose that you want, you see what you want to see in them. They are not different than any of your brother. You just make them more special, and that’s why you feel guilty. You really believe they are real, but they are not more real than any other, they have no other purpose than any of your other brother. They didn’t make you. God created you. You don’t owe them anything, and you are responsible for everything. How you see them, you will see yourself. What you think of them, you will think of yourself. The laws are not different for them. You made them different, but I didn’t, neither the Holy Spirit. You are all the same, the Sons of God. You will see them differently as long as you want to be different, as long as you want to be special to them. You will see them missing you, as long as you want to believe in lack, and seeing them lacking. But remember, the secret is that you do that but to yourself. And you have the power, God’s power, to see it truly. You are Childs of God, and nothing differentiates one from the other. See where and how you still want to be special to them, and you’ll see where you are still bound to remain separate from the Father, where you are still choosing to be who you are not!

Yes, I can see that I still see them mainly unhappy and I want to be different from them, I don’t want to be like them, I want to be the one who succeeds, who is madly happy. That’s the image I’m trying to defend with them it feels. I believe by not being with them I am taking something away from them, I am depriving them of something valuable, of my love, light, therefore I at least have to be happy and I have to prove them that I am happy. It feels like I am betraying them.

You believe it’s personal to you. You believe it’s something that you have found and that other didn’t. You see them different, poor and you see yourself abundant. But it’s in each of you. God is in everyone.

I’m seeing degrees of happiness and seeing degrees of awakening that I measure with the degree of happiness I see in other, and I classify them that way. I don’t see brothers consistently. I still make exception. I see bodies, and levels and I judge them regarding where I see that they are in their awakening, and therefore I separate us. I, myself, forgot that I am a Son of God, so I cannot see my Brothers. I made them up to confirm my dream, and I use them to keep dreaming that I am not what I am, instead of to wake up to Reality, all together. Every time I see a story, that I believe they have a life of themselves, I see them on a time line with step to take yet, and I crucify them and therefore myself, for that’s how I see myself. I don’t overlook the errors, I judge them, and therefore I make them real. I don’t forgive, I crucify! That’s the message I’m teaching myself, that I still have steps to take, that I’m not there yet! But if the Truth is true, and that It’s Eternal, it must be true Now, without any condition! And That is Freedom!

There you are, Armelle, at the Core. The Truth is true, and is true Now, for you and everyone, for we are all in the Mind of God. There is no Reality apart from Him. There is nothing outside His Mind. What you offer to one, you offer it to all. Only Reality in Heaven exists. All else is but an illusion, made by the sleeping mind, that the ego uses to distract you to look within and seeing the Truth, that You are still in God, that You never left, that nothing has changed, because nothing has ever happened. There are no parents, partners, family, people, world! None!


With Love Always
Armelle

Journaling with Jesus April 30th

April 30^th

Dear Jesus,

Can you tell me why I seem to be so afraid of asking you questions? Why I seem almost to not have any question? I don’t know really what to ask, what to be clear about, what is unclear…

The ego doesn’t want you to ask question that could uncover its unreality. This thought of separation in your mind tries by every mean possible to keep a hang onto you, and therefore doesn’t want you to question what it is. It wants you to keep believing its real, its who you are, its your home. If you were certain of your identity you wouldn’t need to ask any question, but a part of your mind is in doubt and believes it’s separate from God. This part is listening to the voice that speaks for the ego and believes that you are what you are not. That’s all what you need to question, to see through. The ego has clouded your mind with its stories and theories to keep you from questioning the core of its foundation. It keeps you preoccupied in the world so that you wouldn’t go within. It made a lot of distractions that are keeping your mind focused on that instead of on recognizing the Truth. It’s scared of disappearing. But in Reality it has never been. You are not scared of asking questions. It is. You are not the one asking questions, it is. And the Holy Spirit uses that ability to question to meet you and remind you of your true Identity in Heaven, that You never left. Who you are doesn’t need question, but it’s clouded by all what you are not and in which you still believe. And that’s what needs to be questioned. You have to come to see its unreality, so that you can know Your Only True Reality in God, with Me, right Now.

Yesterday I came to see that there is no different problems, that I don’t have a jealousy problem, a relationship problem, an allergy problem, a rhythm problem, a fear of others problem, a pride problem…etc… but that they are all covering over the only problem there is, that I believe I am separate from God and others. Is it enough for healing to occur?

This is Healing Itself! Seeing that nothing outside you is causing you to suffer in any way, that nothing outside you exists at all, has any reality whatsoever! Everything is in the mind, and only there. It’s even not personal to you, it is just in the mind that you share with everyone! There is no specific problem. There is one problem and one solution. And it’s right Now! Separation never happened. You are still in God, dreaming of exile but having never left. Being asleep doesn’t mean you are lost. You are just asleep and need just to wake up. Healing is seeing that only that is true, that none of the images you made and you see are true, that none of the idols and gods you made are real and can have any effect on you. What can an illusion do? Nothing! It simply vanishes when its unreality is seen. It’s that simple. And you are the one having the power to see it right now. There is even no Armelle who could have a problem. The one who you think you are doesn’t exist. So, coming from there, how could it have any problem? They go away when it’s seen that they rest on nothing but a false premise, a fake sense of self that has never been at the first place!

It seems that even if I have little questions that come, the answer is always the same… it comes down to believing I am separate and to see that it is not true and has never been.

Yes! All question lead to that core belief. All concern about anything in the world, about the body, about future outcome or past memories come from that. Seeing through that belief in separation is Healing, is Forgiveness. Nothing has even happened! That’s why I tell you to take no thought for tomorrow, to have no care about what to wear, what to eat, where to go, what to do, where to stay, with whom, etc… Your Reality is in Heaven, in God. That’s the only thing you have to be vigilant for, to put your focus on, until it’s not necessary anymore, because Knowledge has been fully restored to you. “Seek first the Kingdom of Heaven and all things will be added unto you”. Keep your focus there.

Thank You so much!

With Love Armelle 

Journaling with Jesus, intro and April 29th

Since the beginning of this path, I've been on and off journaling with Jesus. I often felt the Call to, but as soon as I did it, it was so powerful and everything was going so fast, that I faslty became scared and stopped. Then I had resistance to start again, because of how powerful it was. Several weeks ago, I started again, but didn't talk to Jesus, bu to God or my Self, really seeing I was trying to avoid Him. But since being a little girl, I've loved Him so much and have been used to talk to him so much at that time, that I knew I was still resisting;-)))
Last week, after having been made Minister, and having lived the Miracle that followed, the Call was even stronger, and that very same day I wrote Him. And it's such a powerful experience for me...
Erik asked me twice to post it on the blog, but again I could see some resistance to that;-) So today, I journaled about that, and received as answer to share it, for it is not personal to Armelle!

So here is, my journaling of those last days with Jesus. Enjoy...
My question are in normal writing and His answers are in italic!

With Love and Devotion
Armelle

April 29^th

Dear Jesus,

Here I am as I was feeling the Call to, to ask you all the questions that are coming to my mind. First, I want to say that I feel a trembling in the body as taking this step as well as a fear. It’s several days that I feel a deep vulnerability which seems to be very helpful to be reached or even found, when all the walls of protection are down. It’s as if I am constantly washed away from everything I believe is true, and ripped away from inside. I cry so much, and it’s so full of love… Can you tell me something about this,

Armelle, it’s so beautiful to witness that, to see this shift and this opening to the Truth in You. Your burning desire for Being Who You are is making it happen, is restoring Reality to You. In this, you can see, feel that you don’t have to do anything. For the one who would like to do, who thinks it’s the doer could never reach the Truth, it disappears in the face of Truth. So this one constantly wants to do something to interfere with the natural movement of Life coming back to Its Reality. So all what’s falling away is the inteference, the untrue, the unnecessary. You are pealing away the layers that you don’t need, for Who You are is Everything, and doesn’t need anything external to be That. So the one who is vulnerable is not You. It’s again a defense, another face of the same illusion. You are totally Unvulnerable. Stay there, and let the trembling be the trembling, you are not that either. You are That which never trembles before anything, That which encompasses everything.

Thank you.

I have a question. Are you really Jesus?

(laughter – deep feeling of Love showering my Being) I couldn’t be. For Where I am, there is no personal, there is no name, there is no definite form. What I am is What You are, and that’s from this point of view that I am talking to you, to that part of You. I am talking to my Self, from the Self. So in Truth, no I am not. But for a helpful point of view, yes I am. I am the Voice that once was his, and Who is known for having accomplished, or recognizde the Truth, for having seen the Christ in every of his Brothers and known himself as the Son of God. And  that’s from this experience that I can join with you, for I know what you are going through, therefore I can help you to not fall in the trap of the illusion, for I have been there myself, once believing it was real. But I’ve seen it’s not, and that’s what I want to share with you and everyone. In Truth, I, You have never been like this. We have never been these bodies, these stories. Never. It has only been a dream that the mind believed. But it’s already over now. It’s just playing that again, but you are none of it, NONE.

So what is the purpose of my relationship with Erik?

Remembering the Truth. Seeing the Christ in him, as it is for all your relationships. This one is just the one to which you gave the purpose of joining in the Truth, in remembrance of the Father, of the One You are. It is the one you gave yourself fully to, so that you may know Who You are, and waking up to Reality. It’s your mighty companion, as I am. Except that he seems to be there on earth with you, and that I seem to be in your mind. But truly that’s where we are both, as well as the idea you have yourself and of the world. It’s just in your mind. None of it exists in a solid form, in matter. There is no matter, for there is nothing outside the mind. So, forgive all the images you see, that you may know what is beyond them.

Ok, but how am I suppose to know when something is right and when it’s not, when I am supposed to surrender to what’s happening and when I am called to stay in the certainty? Is it possible that I will be called to not go with what he says or does and staying in what I feel?

(shower of love)You don’t have to know anything! You can totally forget everything you think you know for that’s what will be in the way of following fully my Guidance. So all the ideas you have about what you are supposed to do or not do, when you are supposed to surrender or staying in the certainty, to be straight or following the flow… let all that go. It’s all false, anyway. All the ways you think to answer to anything he might do or say are false, fake. They are covering the Truth. You don’t have to answer anything nor react in any particular way. You don’t have to know anything, for there is only one way to answer, and it’s by Love. It comes down to only One Answer, which solves every perceived “problem”. So the first step is to come to that Love that You are. And from there, the way to act will be given to you. Pause first. Don’t let the mind engage in any way, before you take that pause! Learn to do that, until Love will be your only answer! 

I believe I have to understand the words, to be attentive and understand what people are saying in order to be able to answer them. So when I imagine that I don’t need to know anything, it means to me I don’t even need to know the language and I might still be saying something. And if I don’t understand, how will I know that I answered to what they say.

You have it all backwards! You think you need to answer to what they say, because you think that words are the answer. But I just told you that the Only Answer to anything is Love. So it doesn’t matter what they say. It doesn’t matter if you talk or not. Just give Love. Just Be Love. That’s all what they are really asking for, as you are. All questions, no matter what they are, are always and only a call for Love. For if there is a question, there has been a forgetting of your true identity, and only What You are can remind you What You are. And That is Love. There is no question in Heaven. Everything is Complete and in constant Communication. There is no need for anything, no doubt, nothing lacking. Everything Is. The only way for you to know that what I’m telling you is true is to try… to experience it. So from now on, just focus on Love, not on the words, only on the Presence within. Don’t listen to the words anymore but to Me, to the Spirit within, and trust the words will come effortlessly in your mouth if there is a need for it. Don’t pretend you know what your brother needs, for you don’t. And doing so would be trying to take My Place. As long as your mind is split, you cannot know anything, you can only call on Me or the Holy Spirit for the Answer.

I am with you, forever in Love.

Jesus, why do I keep being jealous?

Because you keep believing you’re separate from God. Therefore you see bodies and are in competition with all of them, for you are in competition with God that you see outside you. You want to have His Place. You believe you are the author of yourself and therefore God cannot exist. So you are in a constant war with yourself, against what you know is true, and what you try to convince yourself. You know that you cannot have created yourself. Everyone knows it, that’s why they keep searching for the beginning of time, the beginning of the creation, but they look for it in time, instead of accepting God as the Only Author, out of time. Your Reality is not in time, not on earth, but in Heaven, in God, where Only You are. There is no life outside Heaven, outside the Mind of God, where You abide. There is NO compromise possible Armelle. You MUST accept the Truth. You cannot be on both sides, you cannot serve two masters. Your Happiness lies in that. You have to accept It!

I am so sad, because I’d like so much to be further than where I am. I’d like to experience NOW being in God.

Only the thought that you are not in Him right Now is what is causing you to feel separate. And even with that thought in your mind, you are not separate from Him, you just experience yourself to be, because you make the experience of a self that is separate, that believes itself being the all mighty, but can only be lonely. The one who is sad is not you, so don’t let him deceiving you. You have to be far much more vigilant than that with your mind wandering. You allow far too much to be what you are not!! An untrained mind can accomplish nothing! Stay in the Miracle. You are in God right Now and forever. For without Him, you are not at all, you are nothing.