Journaling with Jesus May 2nd

May 2^nd

Hey Jesus, I feel I’m going deeper and deeper into seeing the falsity of that world, and those identities. I feel more and more disorientated, and so much more easily brought back to the Truth when I still let the ego dictates its judgements. It feels as if you don’t stop talking to me, as if there is the constant voice of Truth bringing me back to where I belong! You were right, I really don’t need to do anything! It’s so great. In the same time, I feel that I never know what to ask you, like if there is no question in my mind. But I feel very strongly joining with You, it’s so helpful! I think also there could be an avoidance of it because it’s so helpful, that it feels to accelerate everything. So it’s kind where I am at today, having had deep meditation after deep meditation since I woke up this morning. It was like I was totally taken over by the Silence and couldn’t move anymore, nor even open my eyes. An experience of no control, and I am not the one in charge, it’s done through me.

(laughter)(big smile)(tinglings in the heart)(spreading all over and leading me in a deep Silence, no control, no movement)(when I opened my eyes, there is so much Joy, I could explode!). I am with you all the time, I’ve never ceased to be. You don’t have to connect with me by writing to connect with me, we have been connected since you woke up and even more;-) Don’t doubt what you do, or don’t do! Just know that it is always perfect as it is, trust what you feel and even more trust your Purpose. That’s what is leading you. Your very asking for me to be in charge of everything when you wake up, put me really in charge of everything. It’s a clear invitation of your Desire for Truth! “Ask and you shall receive”

I am closer to you than what you can even imagine. For the purpose of this relationship is that you know that I am You, that there is no difference between us, no gap, nothing that separates us in any way. I am That which You are. Don’t bother with the rest, it’s all false anyway. See it just for what it is, an illusion.

Yesterday, Erik asked me to put these writings on our blog. I wasn’t feeling it fully, but I did it. After a few minutes I started to feel really bad about it, so I deleted what I published. Again today, he told me he was really feeling it was to be on our blog, for that was truly helpful. So I’d like to explore that, for I might be afraid of being seen as still having those kind of questions, and therefore not that advanced. And I am also afraid, that some of those who might read it could perceive that it’s all bullshit and that I am metaphysical ghosting. So I’d like to know what you would like me to do about that and if you can help me to see what’s blocking clearly. Thank you!!!! Oh my God, it’s crazy how I feel full of Joy after that little experience I just had before;-) You know it’s funny but I feel that a layer has gone, I feel so intimate with You. I don’t feel looking up at You anymore, I feel you are like my best Friend, my most intimate Friend. It really feels that we are so close. I think I even want to say we are the same, that’s the feeling… I don’t feel any difference or separation anymore! Ouhhh

Oh Armelle, it’s so wonderful, I so rejoice with you. That’s exactly what I was talking about! The Purpose of joining together is to know our sameness, and it’s the same Purpose with everything and everyone. It really comes down to Simplicity! For there is only One Purpose for joining, knowing our Sameness, seeing the Christ, only One Answer to everything, without any exception, LOVE, One Purpose for the day, Peace of Mind… there is only One! How can it be more simple than this?

Do you still want me to clarify anything else? (laughter)

Yes, I do. I’ve been so afraid of asking you any question, and now I feel I could just talk to you the whole day. I could just do that all the time, asking you all the question, as futile there are, that come in my mind, so that they can be seen through and disappear!

Ok, that’s great! Let’s go then!

Yes, that would be wonderful for you to share those conversations. There is nothing personal in it. This relationship is not personal, neither the questions you ask. So it would definitely be helpful. Also for you to remember that there is no one outside you that could judge anything! All judgement comes from self-judgement. And who is the self who judges? And who does he judge? What is the bigger perspective on that? It’s false! A trap in which you are willing to fall so easily. To preserve what? A false sense of self! An identity that doesn’t exist and has never been? What for? Being who you think you are? You’ve never been that! It’s impossible. You cannot be what you are not, for it has never been God’s Will and therefore not yours, so it never happened! The only right use of judgement is “how do I feel”, so ask yourself the question regarding those writings.

I feel good, I feel very good, very very good even. I feel more and more aware of everything that is going on in my mind, so much more committed to the Truth, so full of Love and Joy is flowing everywhere… so I guess I have the answer! Thanks (feeling so in love, so full of gratitude)

You are so welcome;-)

There is something else I’d like to ask you. It’s regarding my relationship with Erik. I’d like to know how it could be of better use. How can we use it for the best, for both of us, and everyone? And I’m really talking about everything!

First know that there is no barrier. You don’t belong to each other. You are everyone and everyone is in you. So there is nothing personal either to this relationship, exactly as I just told you for this one. It’s for everyone. Remember that, “When you are healed, you are not healed alone”. So that’s the Purpose of the relationship, Healing! And in this seeming “process” you’re taking everyone with you. When you awake, not one will remain apart. When I awoke, you were with me. Explore everything that you feel to, and take nothing for granted. You never know what’s going to happen. There is only One Moment, and this moment is Now. And that’s truly the Only Thing you can know for certain. The Only thing that can be known is Reality! There is no certainty anywhere else. It’s always changing.

You are together to remind each other the Truth of Who You are, that you may never forget again. It’s the same relationship than with Me. There are no differences, nothing that keep you separate, and he is in your mind as I am. There is no one out there. There is no love story in the sense that the world thinks of it. He is the closest witness to your Desire and also the one with whom to practice What is True. When you can forgive him fully you will remember Your Identity in Christ surely. By offering him to know him, that’s what you’ll give to yourself. It’s not different than any other relationship, but you both have the same shared Purpose. So there is no special bound, but you are there for each other as a cocoon in which you feel safe to open up to the Love that You are, seeing more and more through the illusion of the ego. So he is like your “prior” holy relationship, to go deeper and deeper into what has been hidden and repressed so that it can be seen and released. Therefore don’t keep anything that you might feel could be between you. Open up fully to him, as a symbol of opening up fully to God, but with the awareness of the Purpose! Not falling asleep again. Keep your Purpose in mind as the light that will show you the way. Go in every corner of your mind to uncover everything. Don’t keep anything. For it’s not who you are, but by keeping it, you fear it in some way and therefore make it real. There is nothing to fear, for there is nothing. This world is nothing. And remember, as you see him you will see yourself. As you think of him, you will think of yourself.

Ok thanks. But is there something more specific for us being together? Something in the plan for us to accomplish?

No. Being Who You are, and sharing and extending it. The ways and means will be given. Just stay in Purpose.

What about sexuality? are we suppose to make love, or to use sexuality in a certain way?

As for everything, to see the false as false, to see everything that has been repressed and hidden, and in this matter there are a lot of things that you would like to keep hidden.

You mean, myself, personally?

No, I mean, everyone. It’s something in which there is a lot of shame and guilt because it is related to the body, and therefore there is a huge belief that what we are is the body. Starting there, there is already guilt. Then there is an identification with all the thoughts and fantasies, and as there are a lot of rules too, there is very often and easily a guilt coming with those thoughts which reinforce the belief of being the body, and keep it enchained and not “seeable” because of the fear of what we might find underneath all that. So as long as it is helpful in that way, just use it as you use everything, to join in Truth and let all what needs to come up, come up. If you use it for pleasure, you reinforce the belief that you are the body, and that you can have pleasure in the body, that it is valuable and that you choose that before God. There is nothing wrong with it. But it’s just foolish. It’s just another distraction, like eating can be too. So it just depends the Purpose you use it for. Joining and remembering the Truth, Holy Spirit. Or pleasure and lack, reinforcing you are a body, separate from each other and God, ego. Don’t make it another god! For bodies cannot join. It’s only if you choose to join in the mind that you can undo the fear of intimacy with your Self. For as long as you will see bodies, there will be a fear of joining and intimacy, because you see separation. Therefore you’re afraid of being attacked, and you think you need to protect yourself from the other. But given the proper vision, it can be very useful, until it’s not anymore and there will be no attraction to it either.

Thank You…I love You!