With everything that’s happening about this conference, I am really becoming more and more aware of the stupidity of the world and that there’s really no value in having an attachment in the world nor in a particular outcome. Erik shared with me that it’s also important to recognize that I asked for what happens, it’s my responsibility. And here came one of the most wonderful realizations for me, that I’m in the habit of beating myself up for everything I experience, that yes, I asked for it to happen, but not because I'm still stuck in the same pattern and can’t get out, but because I told the Holy Spirit that I was giving everything to Him and that I wanted the truth and only the truth, and so He is giving me the opportunity through this conference to see the absurdity of the world again, and the only value there is, which is in God. It is absolutely fantastic ...
I asked to see it all, to give myself all these experiences, because I want all the blocks to the presence of love that are still present to return to my consciousness so I can give them to Him. I see that a huge shift has occurred in my mind, because it’s no longer a question of me holding a grievance about experiencing it, of judging that I experience it... there is no more unworthiness, no more reference to the past, no more victim, no more guilt... just total gratitude for this experience that’s offered to me to heal my mind about the world and my beliefs...
I really understand that my happiness is not necessarily in the fact of being physically present at a conference, to be a teacher and that Spirit speaks through everyone, I'm not special! My happiness is in the fact of following God’s Will, which is also mine, but of which I'm not necessarily always aware... So whether this conference takes place or not, nothing changes, the form it takes won’t change anything either, in my state of mind, with the joy that dwells in me, because it gives me more humility and ordinariness, what I want to experience... and it’s the same as for Mallorca... I trust, I let go of pride and I'll be where Spirit wants me... the way He wants me... because that is my freedom and my peace...
LOVE LOVE LOVE,
LOVE LOVE LOVE,
LOVE LOVE LOVE,...
ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE...
Armelle
Translated by Andy
Mar 12, 2010
Sickness is a defense against the truth
While I was swimming I had a very profound realization and integration; it was really strange how it began. I wasn’t thinking about anything, I was just there making breaststroke movements, feeling cold water sometimes, hot water sometimes, and suddenly, I said to myself, "Yeah, it's true, it’s impossible; sickness is impossible because it can’t be part of our nature, we are not these bodies." It had nothing to do with all those times where, intellectually, I told myself that I was not a body; it was something that seemed to fall on me, like that...
It then followed a clear development from that premise...
If I admit who I really am, I can’t be sick, and the closer I get to who I really am, the less I feel the effects of what I believed before, because my mind shifts, and there is no longer a reason to hang onto those old beliefs.
Eckhart Tolle says that sickness is a means the ego uses to become stronger, it creates a new self concept, now I am a sick person, and more.
I then saw my allergy to gluten and to lactose and how it had created an identity in me, of being different and special; so I asked what had brought me to still believe in it, what value I could still find in it... and there was silence. Nothing came... I told the Holy Spirit that I gave them to him, that I could see no reason to keep these beliefs, I no longer saw any value in them, and that now, when I eat some, when I feel it, I no longer feel the effects, or at least I no longer have my focus on it, nor on my body.
Then the fact came to me that the more I enter into my function, recognize who I am, I am my heart, the less I experience the effects of that... it just loses its meaning...
The Course says that "sickness is a defense against the truth." It’s therefore in recognizing the truth of who I am that sickness loses its meaning, its value, and it can’t exist (such that often, I identify with the sickness, that I at first see as an outside entity coming to live in me, even attacking me and then becoming who I am, because I derive a good number of benefits from becoming a sick person, not counting that I get a lot of attention... and I then have an excuse to stop, or to not follow, my heart...) And the ego loves to have excuses to not follow our path, our heart, it finds a lot of them because that’s what it’s looking for. It looks in the world, in form, for the justification of the thoughts, the beliefs, that block me, and once found, it reinforces them and the ego is content...
It then came to me that I don’t have to fight the sickness, nor try to overcome it, or even to cure it because even wanting to cure it makes it true, real... I just allow it to be there, acknowledge it because it shows me that the mind needs correction in one place... and in this acknowledgement, I open the door to the healing the mind... Rather than focusing on sickness, I focus on what inspires me, transports me, makes my heart open and I question my beliefs all along, I watch my thoughts... and I see what blocks are still preventing the presence of light, of love...
I don’t even have to think I’m not a body, or even believe it, I only need to get into my function, to recognize who I am...
For two days now, I’ve been feeling a deep realization that nothing, absolutely nothing, can hurt me, affect me. I don’t know where it comes from, it was a certainty, a knowing that this is so. And I was touched by it again this morning while reading my lesson of the day... recognizing that salvation can only come from me and that nothing outside of me can save me or give me peace, then I also felt that there was nothing outside of me that could wound me or hurt me.
This has happened several times lately, having important realizations, feeling like a deep healing was happening in me and not knowing where it came from or how. But I notice that the more I open myself and allow myself to enter into my function, letting the Holy Spirit use me to serve His purpose, the more I'm present, simply, the more I experience this kind of moment of profound inspiration or healing, I don’t really know what to call them, and it’s not even necessary anyway!
It's just happiness...
Lots of love
Armelle
translated by Andy
It then followed a clear development from that premise...
If I admit who I really am, I can’t be sick, and the closer I get to who I really am, the less I feel the effects of what I believed before, because my mind shifts, and there is no longer a reason to hang onto those old beliefs.
Eckhart Tolle says that sickness is a means the ego uses to become stronger, it creates a new self concept, now I am a sick person, and more.
I then saw my allergy to gluten and to lactose and how it had created an identity in me, of being different and special; so I asked what had brought me to still believe in it, what value I could still find in it... and there was silence. Nothing came... I told the Holy Spirit that I gave them to him, that I could see no reason to keep these beliefs, I no longer saw any value in them, and that now, when I eat some, when I feel it, I no longer feel the effects, or at least I no longer have my focus on it, nor on my body.
Then the fact came to me that the more I enter into my function, recognize who I am, I am my heart, the less I experience the effects of that... it just loses its meaning...
The Course says that "sickness is a defense against the truth." It’s therefore in recognizing the truth of who I am that sickness loses its meaning, its value, and it can’t exist (such that often, I identify with the sickness, that I at first see as an outside entity coming to live in me, even attacking me and then becoming who I am, because I derive a good number of benefits from becoming a sick person, not counting that I get a lot of attention... and I then have an excuse to stop, or to not follow, my heart...) And the ego loves to have excuses to not follow our path, our heart, it finds a lot of them because that’s what it’s looking for. It looks in the world, in form, for the justification of the thoughts, the beliefs, that block me, and once found, it reinforces them and the ego is content...
It then came to me that I don’t have to fight the sickness, nor try to overcome it, or even to cure it because even wanting to cure it makes it true, real... I just allow it to be there, acknowledge it because it shows me that the mind needs correction in one place... and in this acknowledgement, I open the door to the healing the mind... Rather than focusing on sickness, I focus on what inspires me, transports me, makes my heart open and I question my beliefs all along, I watch my thoughts... and I see what blocks are still preventing the presence of light, of love...
I don’t even have to think I’m not a body, or even believe it, I only need to get into my function, to recognize who I am...
For two days now, I’ve been feeling a deep realization that nothing, absolutely nothing, can hurt me, affect me. I don’t know where it comes from, it was a certainty, a knowing that this is so. And I was touched by it again this morning while reading my lesson of the day... recognizing that salvation can only come from me and that nothing outside of me can save me or give me peace, then I also felt that there was nothing outside of me that could wound me or hurt me.
This has happened several times lately, having important realizations, feeling like a deep healing was happening in me and not knowing where it came from or how. But I notice that the more I open myself and allow myself to enter into my function, letting the Holy Spirit use me to serve His purpose, the more I'm present, simply, the more I experience this kind of moment of profound inspiration or healing, I don’t really know what to call them, and it’s not even necessary anyway!
It's just happiness...
Lots of love
Armelle
translated by Andy
Mar 11, 2010
No sacrifice... Opening to Reality
I am full of joy, love, and life today... I feel how much the world is fading from my mind and how God and Life are becoming stronger...
I was judging myself a lot recently for not being interested in what was happening outside, not wanting to visit the region, to see the wonderful mountains, to feel the power of the volcanoes, to attend a seminar on healing with light, to talk or be with my host more... I judged myself as feeling superior, beyond all that, and I told myself that I should be different, I could at least be grateful for everything I receive...
But that's just what the world wants, what the ego wants... it still wants to maintain a belief in reciprocity, to make me believe that I must be grateful to a person when I'm full of gratitude to God, to Life itself for all it offers me in each moment... the ego wants to maintain the belief that I have to do certain things because someone else wants me to, because someone else thinks it’s not normal that I’m always at home, that I should go out, see what’s around... so I was judging myself... But all that happened was that I detached myself from the world... it's crazy... I really have no interest in all that... It’s so good here, I’m so happy, because my joy, really, depends uniquely on my state of mind, not on what I do or don’t do, not on where I go, nor on the people I see ... I am happy to be happy, for no reason, just because that's how it is... and that is happiness...
These days, I had plenty of wonderful opportunities to see and explore more deeply those beliefs that were still holding me back and kept me judging myself… I’m so full of gratitude to the wonderful people who play their roles so well for me, allowing me to grow in consciousness each day... it’s a blessing! I saw that I still believed the world could offer me something, that I thought I could still get something out of it, that maybe I could get some kind of healing in the world that would accelerate my awakening... thank you, thank you and thank you... I saw this and recognizing it, I was able to give it to the Holy Spirit to take care of, so I was free of it... I could also see that I was still attached to form, and also to the form taken by events and that what is said must be done exactly as it was said, that "contracts" must be respected to the smallest detail, that my happiness and my peace could still depend on that and on the outcome of things... I thank you all for this also, I was also able to give it to the Holy Spirit... what freedom... it's wonderful.
I accept myself exactly as I am today, realizing that in fact that this is my path... thank you also to my mighty companions for reminding me... the goal is to set the world aside, to stop believing in its power over my salvation, and that's just what I experienced.... a little more each day, the world losing its attraction... really there’s nothing of value in this world, nothing that attracts me... and therein lies my joy. Because yes, today it’s even stronger... my joy is so deep and I feel so free... mmmh, a delight, a pure delight...
My faith in God is growing stronger, I give him Everything, really Everything... Fear dissolves as I look at it and Love is stronger as I share it and acknowledge its power... it's magic! A real fairy tale...
Everything is becoming clear, the clouds are melting into the light that is emerging in my mind, and love grows in my heart... happiness is exactly that...
This morning I woke up strangely, I had just had a nightmare and hadn’t come out of it. I shared it with Erik, then we were quiet a long time, in each others’ arms, in love... My mind seemed to grow endlessly and I had the distinct sensation of being in the dream, nothing seemed real. I looked at the houses on the opposite hills, and I felt that it was the fact of still seeing them today, when I had the memory of already looking at them on previous days, that was telling me that I existed today... it was like how I felt when I saw the gardener this morning, that told me I wasn’t in a dream, that made me think that I existed because I saw him every morning... I had the clear vision that what defined my life at that moment was what I saw outside of me... they were the only things that made me believe that I existed in that moment... wow, that was crazy!
I feel enormous faith in God, in the Holy Spirit; I'm ready for anything, to really give Him everything. I feel the joy of giving, the joy of being confident...
I saw so clearly yesterday that really we are never asked for any sacrifice, and that the Holy Spirit is so gentle with us, that I no longer feel fear… Because He doesn’t ask any sacrifice of us, we don’t have to give up anything, even to let go of anything it's really in moving forward in mind training and undoing beliefs that we recognize the valuelessness of what we thought was full of value, and then it’s meaningless to continue in that direction, or to give time or importance to that kind of stuff. No effort is really asked of us. Just to question our beliefs, to be willing to give them to the Holy Spirit, let go and trust, and our mind is changed gradually as I want to question EVERYTHING, to give Him everything and see the false as false. And then my mind is changed for me, and things are also changed for me. I notice I no longer want the same things, no longer have the same desires, the same rapport with what I loved so much before... THERE IS REALLY NO SACRIFICE! NONE, EVER... Everything is offered and available, as it is useful to me.
This path of awakening to Self, to Reality, to Oneness is soft and kind... Just follow the flow of Life, the guidance of Spirit, with this consciousness, this opening to Reality… I watched the hawks fly overhead while I was in the pool and suddenly I said to myself "Yeah, just follow the current, open your wings, and trust the wind that carries us... follow this current, there's really no effort... just trust it... "
Today, I feel clearly I’m here to share joy, love, to shine... and that's all. I also feel a lot of humility after reading the text that David shared on his mailing list about Bill Thetford... it gave me so much, inspired me... Yes, I have nothing to teach, I'm only here to be used by Spirit as He wishes, in each instant... I only have to not interfere.... to be, to share, to shine... To really let go of all concepts... even and especially the one of being spiritual or on a spiritual path. There is absolutely no question about that. And what is wonderful is that this text came to reinforce what I shared with a friend on Skype the day before, saying that God did not expect us to be spiritual, he didn’t ask us to be extraordinary, all we had to do was to be... that’s it...
I feel really blessed by all these opportunities offered to me to be... more and more…
Sooooooooooo much love
Armelle
Translated by Andy
I was judging myself a lot recently for not being interested in what was happening outside, not wanting to visit the region, to see the wonderful mountains, to feel the power of the volcanoes, to attend a seminar on healing with light, to talk or be with my host more... I judged myself as feeling superior, beyond all that, and I told myself that I should be different, I could at least be grateful for everything I receive...
But that's just what the world wants, what the ego wants... it still wants to maintain a belief in reciprocity, to make me believe that I must be grateful to a person when I'm full of gratitude to God, to Life itself for all it offers me in each moment... the ego wants to maintain the belief that I have to do certain things because someone else wants me to, because someone else thinks it’s not normal that I’m always at home, that I should go out, see what’s around... so I was judging myself... But all that happened was that I detached myself from the world... it's crazy... I really have no interest in all that... It’s so good here, I’m so happy, because my joy, really, depends uniquely on my state of mind, not on what I do or don’t do, not on where I go, nor on the people I see ... I am happy to be happy, for no reason, just because that's how it is... and that is happiness...
These days, I had plenty of wonderful opportunities to see and explore more deeply those beliefs that were still holding me back and kept me judging myself… I’m so full of gratitude to the wonderful people who play their roles so well for me, allowing me to grow in consciousness each day... it’s a blessing! I saw that I still believed the world could offer me something, that I thought I could still get something out of it, that maybe I could get some kind of healing in the world that would accelerate my awakening... thank you, thank you and thank you... I saw this and recognizing it, I was able to give it to the Holy Spirit to take care of, so I was free of it... I could also see that I was still attached to form, and also to the form taken by events and that what is said must be done exactly as it was said, that "contracts" must be respected to the smallest detail, that my happiness and my peace could still depend on that and on the outcome of things... I thank you all for this also, I was also able to give it to the Holy Spirit... what freedom... it's wonderful.
I accept myself exactly as I am today, realizing that in fact that this is my path... thank you also to my mighty companions for reminding me... the goal is to set the world aside, to stop believing in its power over my salvation, and that's just what I experienced.... a little more each day, the world losing its attraction... really there’s nothing of value in this world, nothing that attracts me... and therein lies my joy. Because yes, today it’s even stronger... my joy is so deep and I feel so free... mmmh, a delight, a pure delight...
My faith in God is growing stronger, I give him Everything, really Everything... Fear dissolves as I look at it and Love is stronger as I share it and acknowledge its power... it's magic! A real fairy tale...
Everything is becoming clear, the clouds are melting into the light that is emerging in my mind, and love grows in my heart... happiness is exactly that...
This morning I woke up strangely, I had just had a nightmare and hadn’t come out of it. I shared it with Erik, then we were quiet a long time, in each others’ arms, in love... My mind seemed to grow endlessly and I had the distinct sensation of being in the dream, nothing seemed real. I looked at the houses on the opposite hills, and I felt that it was the fact of still seeing them today, when I had the memory of already looking at them on previous days, that was telling me that I existed today... it was like how I felt when I saw the gardener this morning, that told me I wasn’t in a dream, that made me think that I existed because I saw him every morning... I had the clear vision that what defined my life at that moment was what I saw outside of me... they were the only things that made me believe that I existed in that moment... wow, that was crazy!
I feel enormous faith in God, in the Holy Spirit; I'm ready for anything, to really give Him everything. I feel the joy of giving, the joy of being confident...
I saw so clearly yesterday that really we are never asked for any sacrifice, and that the Holy Spirit is so gentle with us, that I no longer feel fear… Because He doesn’t ask any sacrifice of us, we don’t have to give up anything, even to let go of anything it's really in moving forward in mind training and undoing beliefs that we recognize the valuelessness of what we thought was full of value, and then it’s meaningless to continue in that direction, or to give time or importance to that kind of stuff. No effort is really asked of us. Just to question our beliefs, to be willing to give them to the Holy Spirit, let go and trust, and our mind is changed gradually as I want to question EVERYTHING, to give Him everything and see the false as false. And then my mind is changed for me, and things are also changed for me. I notice I no longer want the same things, no longer have the same desires, the same rapport with what I loved so much before... THERE IS REALLY NO SACRIFICE! NONE, EVER... Everything is offered and available, as it is useful to me.
This path of awakening to Self, to Reality, to Oneness is soft and kind... Just follow the flow of Life, the guidance of Spirit, with this consciousness, this opening to Reality… I watched the hawks fly overhead while I was in the pool and suddenly I said to myself "Yeah, just follow the current, open your wings, and trust the wind that carries us... follow this current, there's really no effort... just trust it... "
Today, I feel clearly I’m here to share joy, love, to shine... and that's all. I also feel a lot of humility after reading the text that David shared on his mailing list about Bill Thetford... it gave me so much, inspired me... Yes, I have nothing to teach, I'm only here to be used by Spirit as He wishes, in each instant... I only have to not interfere.... to be, to share, to shine... To really let go of all concepts... even and especially the one of being spiritual or on a spiritual path. There is absolutely no question about that. And what is wonderful is that this text came to reinforce what I shared with a friend on Skype the day before, saying that God did not expect us to be spiritual, he didn’t ask us to be extraordinary, all we had to do was to be... that’s it...
I feel really blessed by all these opportunities offered to me to be... more and more…
Sooooooooooo much love
Armelle
Translated by Andy
Mar 7, 2010
There is nothing to fear
Brothers and Sisters,
I feel Guided today to share with you the glorious news that there truly IS nothing to fear! The world seems to be a very fearful place, in which danger seems to be around every corner. And yet, when you begin to wake up from a dream, and recognize that you are not in the dream, but are the Dreamer of the dream, what is there left to fear?
These last days, I've watched my mind and seen many fears attempt to creep their way in and convince me of the "reality" of separation from Source. Fears about what may happen in the future; fears about how people might react to me if I don't start behaving like a "normal, responsible person" is "supposed" to behave; and fears about financial security. And yet, what I'm finding is that all these fears stem from an underlying fear that if I don't control things, then I will be snuffed out of existence.
That is really the only fear there is. The fear of no longer existing. It is the fear of being killed. It stems from the idea that something VERY wrong has happened, that I am to blame, and that at any moment, God might discover me and wipe me out of existence forever. If I really dig deeply into any of my so-called worldly or "personal" concerns and fears, and am willing to see what I'm REALLY afraid of... it's always the same fear: death, or non-existence.
Yet, what is really afraid? Is it my true Self? No. It is the part of my mind that we call the ego; the part of my mind that is deeply invested in the belief that it has separated itself from God and has taken God's power for itself. It believes that it has taken God's power away from God, and used this power to create its own kingdom... this entire cosmos of time and space, all of which is nothing more than a false idea projected outward.
The reason that there is nothing to fear is because God did not create this world, and therefore it does not truly exist except as a dream in our deceived mind. Dreams may seem very fearful, especially when you belief that the character in the dream is who you are, but even if you die in your dream, you can NEVER die in reality. As God's perfect Creation, we are pure, immortal Spirit, extending Love in the realm of infinity forever and ever.
In my dreamstate, this truth is mostly blocked from my awareness, but the more I practice true forgiveness - forgiving my brothers for what they NEVER truly did - the more I remember Where I Really Am. As Jesus said, "The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand." It is here. It is now. And it is perfectly invulnerable to the fearful imaginings of our make-believe ego self. We ARE saved.
So relax. Be willing to question the purpose of preoccupying the mind with worldly concerns and "problems". The world and all of its problems are nothing but a great deception, designed by the false ego to perpetuate it's make-believe existence. When fear arises, it always comes from identifying with the ego, and fearing nonexistence. And yet, the ego's nonexistence is assured! It is not to be feared but Joyously celebrated Now!
There IS no ego! There IS no death! There IS no world of time and space! There is only God, and we are His Beloved Son Now and for eternity. Let us accept Reality and be Happy!
All my Love,
Erik
I feel Guided today to share with you the glorious news that there truly IS nothing to fear! The world seems to be a very fearful place, in which danger seems to be around every corner. And yet, when you begin to wake up from a dream, and recognize that you are not in the dream, but are the Dreamer of the dream, what is there left to fear?
These last days, I've watched my mind and seen many fears attempt to creep their way in and convince me of the "reality" of separation from Source. Fears about what may happen in the future; fears about how people might react to me if I don't start behaving like a "normal, responsible person" is "supposed" to behave; and fears about financial security. And yet, what I'm finding is that all these fears stem from an underlying fear that if I don't control things, then I will be snuffed out of existence.
That is really the only fear there is. The fear of no longer existing. It is the fear of being killed. It stems from the idea that something VERY wrong has happened, that I am to blame, and that at any moment, God might discover me and wipe me out of existence forever. If I really dig deeply into any of my so-called worldly or "personal" concerns and fears, and am willing to see what I'm REALLY afraid of... it's always the same fear: death, or non-existence.
Yet, what is really afraid? Is it my true Self? No. It is the part of my mind that we call the ego; the part of my mind that is deeply invested in the belief that it has separated itself from God and has taken God's power for itself. It believes that it has taken God's power away from God, and used this power to create its own kingdom... this entire cosmos of time and space, all of which is nothing more than a false idea projected outward.
The reason that there is nothing to fear is because God did not create this world, and therefore it does not truly exist except as a dream in our deceived mind. Dreams may seem very fearful, especially when you belief that the character in the dream is who you are, but even if you die in your dream, you can NEVER die in reality. As God's perfect Creation, we are pure, immortal Spirit, extending Love in the realm of infinity forever and ever.
In my dreamstate, this truth is mostly blocked from my awareness, but the more I practice true forgiveness - forgiving my brothers for what they NEVER truly did - the more I remember Where I Really Am. As Jesus said, "The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand." It is here. It is now. And it is perfectly invulnerable to the fearful imaginings of our make-believe ego self. We ARE saved.
So relax. Be willing to question the purpose of preoccupying the mind with worldly concerns and "problems". The world and all of its problems are nothing but a great deception, designed by the false ego to perpetuate it's make-believe existence. When fear arises, it always comes from identifying with the ego, and fearing nonexistence. And yet, the ego's nonexistence is assured! It is not to be feared but Joyously celebrated Now!
There IS no ego! There IS no death! There IS no world of time and space! There is only God, and we are His Beloved Son Now and for eternity. Let us accept Reality and be Happy!
All my Love,
Erik
Mar 3, 2010
What would happen if...
What would happen if fear was just fear? What would happen if anger was just anger? What would happen if sadness was just sadness? What would happen if we stopped telling ourselves stories about all this? And if it was just that ... Just what is present in the moment, then passes. And in this presence delivered its most beautiful message ... If joy was found in tears that flow for I don’t know what reason, and I don’t need to know. If I stopped wanting to know everything, wanting to understand everything. If I were to see that life flows through “me” and I opened myself to the fact that, really, "I" have no control over life. Or even "my" life. For quite simply Life Is. And it follows its own movement by itself. And its lightness comes from the fact that I stop wanting to control it, wanting to believe at any price that I control it. It happens ... "I" seem to be the one living "my” life, but it is in fact life that lives through me ... And it includes Everything, for nothing is separate.
Silence is in noise, not the opposite of noise. Just as joy is in the tears I let flow and not their opposite. And if I simply allowed life to flow through me? And if I allowed everything that appears to be there ... And if I stopped resisting, refusing, repressing, judging, creating stories, making connections, searching ... And I just stopped ... And I set myself there, in what is, knowing that All there is, and that everything is perfect.
No, really, it wouldn’t be better if it were different. For nothing that is could be otherwise, different. All that "I" seem to live is perfect at this time. Because even sorrow, pain and suffering are part of everything. Nothing is separate. In the recognition of the Oneness All is Freedom. No more trying to be someone, following a particular path, creating something ... Life takes care of it, God takes care of it. For He is everywhere, in Everything, in each thing or person that seems separate. Everything is given me ... All the time. It’s also necessary that I want to see it... to stop running, to find that this is here, right here, now.
It is present in this peace and silence, in the sound of wind in the leaves of trees or the tools of workmen building the house next door, in the immensity of this mountain facing me, present in the wonder at the numbers and colors of birds and butterflies that dance in the garden, present in the powerful flight of hawks circling in the air, present beyond the words I can say, present whatever "I" seem to do, because it's there, simply ...
And we all know, we recognize that presence. Perhaps we chose to forget once, whatever. And we all will return, without exception. And we’ll all hear the voice of recognition and the simplicity of being. It brings us back us to the truth. It is here, all the time, and intensifies in inner silence. It’s enough to take time, to stop for a moment. Stop everything ... It’s here ...
There is nothing to fear ... In the fear of descending into my inner depths, lies my freedom. So I say "yes" to this fear, because when I really look at it, what I see is just fear ... nothing else. No story, no connections, nothing ... just fear. And in disconnecting all that I thought it was up until then, I cease to be afraid of fear and I let it be what it is. Perhaps there’s no problem that the life flowing through me is, in that moment, expressed in fear ... And I realize, fully, there was really nothing to fear ...
I am not these thoughts, these beliefs, all these movements that are expressed through me. And in those depths, I realize that I am not what I thought I was. I'm not a separate person, a victim of the world around me, and guilty of acting in a certain way. "I" am part of Everything, which expresses itself through the body with which "I" identify.
There are just passing thoughts ...
And Love Is ... God Is ... Life Is ... whatever name we want to give it, is our reality ...
With gentleness and simplicity ... Oneness in our Being, "I" disappear; Purity remains...
With Love
Armelle
Translation made by Andy..
Mar 1, 2010
The Observer...
I noticed that since yesterday, I have felt an uneasiness with Bonnie and Geoff that I define in relation to what I experienced... I put it to jealousy perhaps, because it justifies my belief that people do not like that I am completely happy....
I also feel a little uncomfortable because Geoff asked me if we were going to travel around the country once Erik was here... and since Bonnie had told me we could stay here until the conference, I then felt he had changed his mind, but didn’t dare to tell me! It brought me back to the belief that I bother people... I therefore asked my brother to express it, so I could see the presence of this belief and then look at it, release it...
So I questioned him, watching what was in my mind. Am I still competing, the "I am better than others"? I don’t think so, but in this sentence, there's me and the other... I simply see them as separated.
What would happen if none of this were true?? What would happen if I stopped telling myself these little stories?
While waiting for Bonnie to go listen to the national orchestra, a big first for me... I've never listened to classical music; I feel like a little girl, all excited, with sparkling eyes and open heart. And at the same time, there seems to be that, also... this flow of thoughts in my mind... I lie on my bed and close my eyes, just here, in the presence of the moment.
I question what is happening in my perception, because I am quite open to the fact that it could be nothing, it's just what I’m asking for... and it comes to me... Is there a problem with competition? Competition is just competition. Perhaps I don’t know what it really is... I then ask myself the same question in relation to jealousy... Where’s the problem? If I didn’t tell myself a story about it, everything is ok, if that’s what’s there, that’s what’s there, and it's perfect as is. I feel that all this leads me back to the here and now, instead of continuing to question myself and judge myself for hours. Everything is perfect as it is now, whatever...
I felt I released all my tension about it... This allowed me to see that, at this moment, in fact... I want to be loved by them. I want to be part of their complicity in some way I want to be their friend, their intimate one in the world, through words, acts... I see myself as a separate person who wants to join other separated people, and what I experience, is just that... Again, a defense to avoid simply being here, with all that is here... the joy of the little girl, in the present moment, what is here....
Thank you for showing me... thank you
While listening to the orchestra play this morning, I could see every thought that passed. It's amazing how many there are... Then the realization clearly came to me that we really have no choice, everything is already past. And all that must happen, will happen, whatever we do to prevent it. The same way everything that is not supposed to happen, won’t happen, whatever we do to try to force things. I then saw that it was the belief that we have choice that is the cause of suffering. Because without choice, I experience what I experience, and that's it. It’s what’s there, and I can’t change anything.
But if I have to choose, then I start to think "I shouldn’t have done that, I should have done this, and if I did that, and if I had chosen this instead, if I didn’t say that or if I said this, etc..." Anyway, we think we have the authority to make things different and we believe they would be better if they were different and that’s how the guilt comes in, because I didn’t make the right choice and so that’s why I’m experiencing what I’m experiencing, whatever it is.
And if I can also see it, just for what it is, without putting a judgment on it, or not telling myself a story about what happens, when I just look at what Is, life happens, takes place, without me feeling taken by the story, the emotion.
I also saw how strong the belief is that enlightenment or awakening must be something extraordinary. This can lead to the fact that one never stops at the ordinary, at the fullest simplicity, because it can’t just be that, it must be more. And so we continue to look again and again, never stopping, and passing, perhaps for a long time right next to what is and always has been... the obvious. Life is unfolding here, before our eyes, but we can’t see it, because we are too busy searching for... more, better, something else, the extraordinary.
What if that was exactly it? What if it was in the most ordinary...?
On Paltalk, the session was reading from the Course and there was a deep understanding of lack of choice and non-judgment of what is, from what I saw, which allowed me to be right there with what is. The lightness of life, that passes, that happens. Mmmh ....
What simple happiness, what lightness... to watch, to observe, to not judge... everything is ok ...
The reward today is still deep love, peace, and silence... It doesn't seem to be just an experience, it seems to be what is...
so much love, and thank you so much to all my brother who just reflect me that...
Armelle
Translation made by so dear Andy... with whom I am experiencing something really great in that "collaboration"... there is not really words for that, but as he told me, something like the oneness...Love Brother
I also feel a little uncomfortable because Geoff asked me if we were going to travel around the country once Erik was here... and since Bonnie had told me we could stay here until the conference, I then felt he had changed his mind, but didn’t dare to tell me! It brought me back to the belief that I bother people... I therefore asked my brother to express it, so I could see the presence of this belief and then look at it, release it...
So I questioned him, watching what was in my mind. Am I still competing, the "I am better than others"? I don’t think so, but in this sentence, there's me and the other... I simply see them as separated.
What would happen if none of this were true?? What would happen if I stopped telling myself these little stories?
While waiting for Bonnie to go listen to the national orchestra, a big first for me... I've never listened to classical music; I feel like a little girl, all excited, with sparkling eyes and open heart. And at the same time, there seems to be that, also... this flow of thoughts in my mind... I lie on my bed and close my eyes, just here, in the presence of the moment.
I question what is happening in my perception, because I am quite open to the fact that it could be nothing, it's just what I’m asking for... and it comes to me... Is there a problem with competition? Competition is just competition. Perhaps I don’t know what it really is... I then ask myself the same question in relation to jealousy... Where’s the problem? If I didn’t tell myself a story about it, everything is ok, if that’s what’s there, that’s what’s there, and it's perfect as is. I feel that all this leads me back to the here and now, instead of continuing to question myself and judge myself for hours. Everything is perfect as it is now, whatever...
I felt I released all my tension about it... This allowed me to see that, at this moment, in fact... I want to be loved by them. I want to be part of their complicity in some way I want to be their friend, their intimate one in the world, through words, acts... I see myself as a separate person who wants to join other separated people, and what I experience, is just that... Again, a defense to avoid simply being here, with all that is here... the joy of the little girl, in the present moment, what is here....
Thank you for showing me... thank you
While listening to the orchestra play this morning, I could see every thought that passed. It's amazing how many there are... Then the realization clearly came to me that we really have no choice, everything is already past. And all that must happen, will happen, whatever we do to prevent it. The same way everything that is not supposed to happen, won’t happen, whatever we do to try to force things. I then saw that it was the belief that we have choice that is the cause of suffering. Because without choice, I experience what I experience, and that's it. It’s what’s there, and I can’t change anything.
But if I have to choose, then I start to think "I shouldn’t have done that, I should have done this, and if I did that, and if I had chosen this instead, if I didn’t say that or if I said this, etc..." Anyway, we think we have the authority to make things different and we believe they would be better if they were different and that’s how the guilt comes in, because I didn’t make the right choice and so that’s why I’m experiencing what I’m experiencing, whatever it is.
And if I can also see it, just for what it is, without putting a judgment on it, or not telling myself a story about what happens, when I just look at what Is, life happens, takes place, without me feeling taken by the story, the emotion.
I also saw how strong the belief is that enlightenment or awakening must be something extraordinary. This can lead to the fact that one never stops at the ordinary, at the fullest simplicity, because it can’t just be that, it must be more. And so we continue to look again and again, never stopping, and passing, perhaps for a long time right next to what is and always has been... the obvious. Life is unfolding here, before our eyes, but we can’t see it, because we are too busy searching for... more, better, something else, the extraordinary.
What if that was exactly it? What if it was in the most ordinary...?
On Paltalk, the session was reading from the Course and there was a deep understanding of lack of choice and non-judgment of what is, from what I saw, which allowed me to be right there with what is. The lightness of life, that passes, that happens. Mmmh ....
What simple happiness, what lightness... to watch, to observe, to not judge... everything is ok ...
The reward today is still deep love, peace, and silence... It doesn't seem to be just an experience, it seems to be what is...
so much love, and thank you so much to all my brother who just reflect me that...
Armelle
Translation made by so dear Andy... with whom I am experiencing something really great in that "collaboration"... there is not really words for that, but as he told me, something like the oneness...Love Brother
Everyhting is already there...
After that day I could not sleep ... I kept that smile on my lips, I was seeing ... Life to be simply everything.That profound joy still inside me. I then feltpushed to open my Course, feeling that certain passages were going to be shown to me, given! I will share them, as well all my thoughts and what I felt, on what I opened my eyes ...
It occurs to me that really there is nothing to reject, everything to include ... and see what is, just for what it is. Because nothing takes a dramatic sense, if I don’t tell a story, if I don’t create any history, so I choose the blank page of "I do not know," in which, somehow I am born every minute ... in this not knowing, I live fully. Without any effort, without doing anything. I just let life be, unfold ... In full awareness of "I need to do nothing,” because Everything is already there, it's who we are. There is nothing to attain, nothing to find, just to stop and return to our initial condition, Oneness, to see that Everything is already there.
“Only those who give over all desire to reject can know that their own rejection is impossible.” T-3.VI.9
Any judgment is a rejection of me or my brother, ... and what I reject, repress, I amplify and give full reality ... otherwise I would just see it to be what it is ..
"No one dismisses something he considers part of himself." T-4.II.4:3
I encounter only myself ... when I am fully aware of that, would I still act the same way towards those that I seem to meet, encounter, who seem to be part of my life ... ?
"Do not make the pathetic error of ‘clinging to the old rugged cross.’ The only message of the crucifixion is that you can overcome the cross. Until then you are free tocrucify yourself as often as you choose." T-4.In.3:7
Stop clinging to history ... I have no cross to bear! I can let history be just a story, I do not identify with it ... I do not have to give it meaning, orjustify it or try to explain it, it's just a story, it is not even "my" story, it’s just a story that is part of the All ...
"Change is always fearful to the separated because they can not conceive of it as a step toward healing the separation. They always perceive it as a step towards further separation, because separation was their first experience of change." T-4.I.2.2
Dare to take a step ... because separation does not exist!
It’s like the deep belief that it would be better if it were different, or I'd be better if I had it or if I experienced that or if I was there or if that condition was met ... a belief very deeply rooted because it is the very one that made the belief in the separation ... because the Son wanted to see if there was something better, a tiny moment, hethought he had separated from God and was experiencing this life on earth ... because that is where the world appeared, to respond to the desire for more, better, different, other ... But there is no separation ...
In fact, wanting to wake up, wanting enlightenment, is the ego, the person who wants to wake up, but that's impossible ... For it is from the standpoint of separation and denial insaying that what is separated may become One. However, it is simply to recognize that the separation never happened, that it doesn’t exist, no more than the person who wants to awaken. It is therefore an unreachable "goal". For in the recognition of non-separation, there is the recognition that I'm already whole, and therefore there is no separate person, no person who may awaken. And the "I" who wants to wake up, vanished in the Whole. He does not awaken ... Therefore the recognition of what Is and has always been, can not happen, until "I" stop seeking to awaken ...
The ego does not exist, it's just a thought, a decision in the mind ... Since that day I said 'no' to guilt, no to the chatter of the ego, I realize that in fact there is no choice. There may seem to be a choice at the start ... a choice between following and listening to the ego or Spirit, but ultimately there is not. The ego is not; it is just anillusion, another story that is told about a story ... and then the Spirit is all that is.
There is no choice, no possibility of choice, nor even any possible control of anything; everything is already there... There remains just what is ... And it is in my desire or my attempt to make it mine, to describe it that I "lose" its essence. Because I want to put words, I want to explain what is unexplainable in words, I want to impose the separation on the Whole, the inseparable ... The thinking individual wants to understand, to ask questions ... and during that time, he is just choosing to be separate, to be an individual ...
There is nothing to understand, just be ... with what Is, whatever it is. Because anyway it's part of the All ... There is nothing to reject, everything to include! It’s because I tellstories about what I call my history, that I suffer. If I look at just what is, if I truly take what is for what it is ... anger for anger, fear for fear, sadness for sadness, etc. ... if I do not put any thought on it, if I don’t try to justify, to create a link with history, or a story that I tell, or they told me, if I just look at what is, then would there really a problem in experiencing it? Where is the problem experiencing this? That's just part of life, it is life because it's part of everything ...
Armelle
Translated by our friend Andy
It occurs to me that really there is nothing to reject, everything to include ... and see what is, just for what it is. Because nothing takes a dramatic sense, if I don’t tell a story, if I don’t create any history, so I choose the blank page of "I do not know," in which, somehow I am born every minute ... in this not knowing, I live fully. Without any effort, without doing anything. I just let life be, unfold ... In full awareness of "I need to do nothing,” because Everything is already there, it's who we are. There is nothing to attain, nothing to find, just to stop and return to our initial condition, Oneness, to see that Everything is already there.
“Only those who give over all desire to reject can know that their own rejection is impossible.” T-3.VI.9
Any judgment is a rejection of me or my brother, ... and what I reject, repress, I amplify and give full reality ... otherwise I would just see it to be what it is ..
"No one dismisses something he considers part of himself." T-4.II.4:3
I encounter only myself ... when I am fully aware of that, would I still act the same way towards those that I seem to meet, encounter, who seem to be part of my life ... ?
"Do not make the pathetic error of ‘clinging to the old rugged cross.’ The only message of the crucifixion is that you can overcome the cross. Until then you are free tocrucify yourself as often as you choose." T-4.In.3:7
Stop clinging to history ... I have no cross to bear! I can let history be just a story, I do not identify with it ... I do not have to give it meaning, orjustify it or try to explain it, it's just a story, it is not even "my" story, it’s just a story that is part of the All ...
"Change is always fearful to the separated because they can not conceive of it as a step toward healing the separation. They always perceive it as a step towards further separation, because separation was their first experience of change." T-4.I.2.2
Dare to take a step ... because separation does not exist!
It’s like the deep belief that it would be better if it were different, or I'd be better if I had it or if I experienced that or if I was there or if that condition was met ... a belief very deeply rooted because it is the very one that made the belief in the separation ... because the Son wanted to see if there was something better, a tiny moment, hethought he had separated from God and was experiencing this life on earth ... because that is where the world appeared, to respond to the desire for more, better, different, other ... But there is no separation ...
In fact, wanting to wake up, wanting enlightenment, is the ego, the person who wants to wake up, but that's impossible ... For it is from the standpoint of separation and denial insaying that what is separated may become One. However, it is simply to recognize that the separation never happened, that it doesn’t exist, no more than the person who wants to awaken. It is therefore an unreachable "goal". For in the recognition of non-separation, there is the recognition that I'm already whole, and therefore there is no separate person, no person who may awaken. And the "I" who wants to wake up, vanished in the Whole. He does not awaken ... Therefore the recognition of what Is and has always been, can not happen, until "I" stop seeking to awaken ...
The ego does not exist, it's just a thought, a decision in the mind ... Since that day I said 'no' to guilt, no to the chatter of the ego, I realize that in fact there is no choice. There may seem to be a choice at the start ... a choice between following and listening to the ego or Spirit, but ultimately there is not. The ego is not; it is just anillusion, another story that is told about a story ... and then the Spirit is all that is.
There is no choice, no possibility of choice, nor even any possible control of anything; everything is already there... There remains just what is ... And it is in my desire or my attempt to make it mine, to describe it that I "lose" its essence. Because I want to put words, I want to explain what is unexplainable in words, I want to impose the separation on the Whole, the inseparable ... The thinking individual wants to understand, to ask questions ... and during that time, he is just choosing to be separate, to be an individual ...
There is nothing to understand, just be ... with what Is, whatever it is. Because anyway it's part of the All ... There is nothing to reject, everything to include! It’s because I tellstories about what I call my history, that I suffer. If I look at just what is, if I truly take what is for what it is ... anger for anger, fear for fear, sadness for sadness, etc. ... if I do not put any thought on it, if I don’t try to justify, to create a link with history, or a story that I tell, or they told me, if I just look at what is, then would there really a problem in experiencing it? Where is the problem experiencing this? That's just part of life, it is life because it's part of everything ...
Armelle
Translated by our friend Andy
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I wake up, still in that same state, this same constency... as if the mind was expanding, as if there was no thought, as if I don't know anything anymore... what a lightness, Happiness...
At the breakfast, we are all there, and I am just present, and in the same time I have the impression that « I » am not there... I don't have anything to say. I just sit at the table, in the presence. Really strong. No thought. I am looking at the mountains in front of me, and... I see them... just that, what IS, so simply...
When it's time to leave to go to the market, I feel being a bit weak, and I need to sit, I will almost fall apart. I feel I should better stay here and rest, it's as if there is something that wants to emerge... but I really want to go to the market... fruits, vegetables, people, colors... the excitation of the little girl is there.. So I go with Bonnie and Geoff.
I am really silent today. No need for talking. In the car, I realize that I am Love with everything... trees, flowers, colors of the houses, as if it was the first time that I see it, as if I had not seen anything until now... people... every person I see in the street, although we are in the car, driving, I feel a so deep love.. wow, wonderful, so huge! And it's like this for everything... I have the impression that everything is me... Or there is no « me » and just everything...
At the market, I am still in that, an very intense love. Being there, but not there... as if something far much bigger than « me » is there.. (hard to explain really what I feel) This love for everybody is so strong. May be even too strong, in once. Again, I have the impression I'll fall apart, I'll leave. As if all what I am living is so strong that the mind cannot stand it. It's as if I was going into transe.. I sit on the sidewalk, and the body starts to move by itself. I am looking to what is happening. It's as if the mind is releasing. I just stay present to what is, to let what is be, not resisting to anything, just being there, with that. And it's seems crazy... I feel so much at peace, and happy too... as if a new door was opening. I have to stop several times on the way back to the car! Finally I found myself laying down on a sidewalk, legs hold by Ricardo, a very nice guy, that brought me a glass of ice, gave me his hat to have some shadow, and just tells me to relax, take the time, just let go, everything's ok... « oh yeah, everything's ok... even more than ok... so wonderful... I am so happy!! » I feel so good, completely taken care by the presence, as if I was in the arms of God, in the All... I am so happy... surrounded, being in a so deep peace, a so deep love... That's all there is..
After a nap, I give the paltalk. I am still in that deep peace, wonderful.So true, talking about the concept of Armelle, being naked, talking about the way the spiritual ego is working for me, all those stories of the last days, weekd... so powerful.
Once again, I realize deeper, how the words coming from the heaviness, the … of the other day, with Walter and Don, are so powerful, and have a lot of sense...
« accept being there, accept being on earth. Stop running... » I hear them now, today. I understand them. Accept, just accept. Let go the attachment to the story. Stop to tell you stories about the story, stop seeking again and again, still farther, still something else, just STOP... et look... it's already there.. here is what I am hearing today, here is what I am living today... pure happiness...
Later in the day, I was receiving a massage, and as I was still in that so deep love state, including everything, it was as if I was « feeling » the mountain, as the person who was giving the massage. As if everything was « me », in « me ». Hard really to explain, put words on it. Still being in that very deep wholeness...
I was watching all that closer... and I noticed that evey time I was thinking about that, as a way of capturing it, of fixing it to describe it, I wasn't in that, as if it was going away. But really, I had put thought again on that instead of just being... Everything. I was asking again by that simple thought, to be separated again. Then I had the impression that really we are always in that « state », as soon as we stop thinking, in this present moment, where Everything is, which is pure Love for everything. And as soon as there is a passing thought, personality comes back at the first plan... here ic how I would describe it.
I am in that deep peace, and watch what's happening... There is silent inside... I am the silent, now! Mmm...
Armelle
At the breakfast, we are all there, and I am just present, and in the same time I have the impression that « I » am not there... I don't have anything to say. I just sit at the table, in the presence. Really strong. No thought. I am looking at the mountains in front of me, and... I see them... just that, what IS, so simply...
When it's time to leave to go to the market, I feel being a bit weak, and I need to sit, I will almost fall apart. I feel I should better stay here and rest, it's as if there is something that wants to emerge... but I really want to go to the market... fruits, vegetables, people, colors... the excitation of the little girl is there.. So I go with Bonnie and Geoff.
I am really silent today. No need for talking. In the car, I realize that I am Love with everything... trees, flowers, colors of the houses, as if it was the first time that I see it, as if I had not seen anything until now... people... every person I see in the street, although we are in the car, driving, I feel a so deep love.. wow, wonderful, so huge! And it's like this for everything... I have the impression that everything is me... Or there is no « me » and just everything...
At the market, I am still in that, an very intense love. Being there, but not there... as if something far much bigger than « me » is there.. (hard to explain really what I feel) This love for everybody is so strong. May be even too strong, in once. Again, I have the impression I'll fall apart, I'll leave. As if all what I am living is so strong that the mind cannot stand it. It's as if I was going into transe.. I sit on the sidewalk, and the body starts to move by itself. I am looking to what is happening. It's as if the mind is releasing. I just stay present to what is, to let what is be, not resisting to anything, just being there, with that. And it's seems crazy... I feel so much at peace, and happy too... as if a new door was opening. I have to stop several times on the way back to the car! Finally I found myself laying down on a sidewalk, legs hold by Ricardo, a very nice guy, that brought me a glass of ice, gave me his hat to have some shadow, and just tells me to relax, take the time, just let go, everything's ok... « oh yeah, everything's ok... even more than ok... so wonderful... I am so happy!! » I feel so good, completely taken care by the presence, as if I was in the arms of God, in the All... I am so happy... surrounded, being in a so deep peace, a so deep love... That's all there is..
After a nap, I give the paltalk. I am still in that deep peace, wonderful.So true, talking about the concept of Armelle, being naked, talking about the way the spiritual ego is working for me, all those stories of the last days, weekd... so powerful.
Once again, I realize deeper, how the words coming from the heaviness, the … of the other day, with Walter and Don, are so powerful, and have a lot of sense...
« accept being there, accept being on earth. Stop running... » I hear them now, today. I understand them. Accept, just accept. Let go the attachment to the story. Stop to tell you stories about the story, stop seeking again and again, still farther, still something else, just STOP... et look... it's already there.. here is what I am hearing today, here is what I am living today... pure happiness...
I also found myself telling the story of the wave when I went to bathe, the final afternoon before leaving Dominical. And in that moment, I grasped the full dimension of this moment of my entrance into the sea and my rising on this wave, super high and mighty that whipped me and made me back up it was so strong. That day, she had "cleaned," washed all these stories of the past, brought them into the here and now ... Today, as I tell it, tears come, my throat tightens, my voice is lower, my emotion is strong ... and if that was it? And if it was just that? Life that has, itself, "hit" me full in the body, woken me up, and reminded me of the presence of Now, which is all that Is... And if it was Life, disguised as a wave ...? Silence, I am touched ...
Later in the day, I was receiving a massage, and as I was still in that so deep love state, including everything, it was as if I was « feeling » the mountain, as the person who was giving the massage. As if everything was « me », in « me ». Hard really to explain, put words on it. Still being in that very deep wholeness...
I was watching all that closer... and I noticed that evey time I was thinking about that, as a way of capturing it, of fixing it to describe it, I wasn't in that, as if it was going away. But really, I had put thought again on that instead of just being... Everything. I was asking again by that simple thought, to be separated again. Then I had the impression that really we are always in that « state », as soon as we stop thinking, in this present moment, where Everything is, which is pure Love for everything. And as soon as there is a passing thought, personality comes back at the first plan... here ic how I would describe it.
I am in that deep peace, and watch what's happening... There is silent inside... I am the silent, now! Mmm...
Armelle
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